Past: One or two unhealthy meals would open the floodgates to months or years of unhealthy eating.
Present: Unhealthy treats are savored, the physical effects are noted, back to healthy eating at the next meal.
Past: Pain when working out meant STOP.
Present: Pain when working out means DIG.
Past: Working out = obligation and punishment for bad behavior.
Present: Working out = opportunity to impress and surprise myself.
Present: Thinner cankles!
Way Past: Skipped (like “tra la la” skip) the mile in 7th grade to avoid the embarrassment of not being able to run.
Past: 12-13 minute mile during c25k workouts.
Past: 9:17-10mm during c25k workouts and obsession with reading marathon recaps. Runner fantasies abound.
Past: Felt *wrong*. Felt like my body didn’t at all match the person I believed myself to be inside.
Present: My appearance and dedication to improving myself reflect my inner optimism and passion.
Past: Painfully aware of everyone around me. At the gym, at the lake, at TDM. Assumed that everyone who made eye contact with me was judging my body, judging my fitness level and feeling grateful that they weren’t me.
Present: Don’t know, don’t care. If anyone is looking at my waist or stomach though, they’re probably jealous. Not that it matters… 😀